When being present to your Calculating Self, versus that of your Authentic Self, it is important to know and remember one thing: The calculating self does not care about your happiness.
Not one bit. It only cares about survival. Not whether you like it. Or are happy. Or fulfilled. Or energized. Or empowered. Doesn’t care. It only cares about continuation of one thing: its own. It will fight tooth and nail to stay intact, to keep its world views and patterns unchanged.
It has survived this situation once, why would it do something different? Just do the same thing again, and you will make it out the other side. Your experience of life suck? Your authentic self doesn’t like it? It doesn’t care! This is the sure thing. It knows that you will survive. So it pushes you to do it again.
Thrive in life? Feh, it doesn’t care. Just survive. Trapped in a rut you don’t want? Doesn’t care, just survive. Do things that are unproductive? Doesn’t care, just do same thing again, it knows the outcome, you will survive. Want to walk down sunnier roads? NOPE! Going to resist, that’s dangerous territory. Stay the course, you will survive.
The calculating self is great for, well, calculating things. It can warn us and aid us and oh yes, help us survive. But it’s one-dimensional. It doesn’t have a care for the wholistic being we are. And there are times where it’s directions will not help us get what or where we want.
The more we are present, the more in tune we become with our Central/Authentic selves, and the more we cease to cede complete control to our Calculating selves, the more we gain freedom to walk the paths of our own choosing, paths towards countless new possibilities for both us and all those around us.